over the course of several years, i have received many - often contradicting - diagnoses. i'm also self-diagnosed with a few things. many of my self-dx's come from trying to decipher or sort out the conflicting info my doctors have given me in the past.

i was first diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder, psychotic depression, and possible bipolar disorder-nos. i was told i had an unspecified learning disability, which i interpret to be dyscalculia. i also believe i am autistic; i have been told i have sensory processing issues, but was never given a fully fledged spd/asd diagnosis.

my mood disorder has also been called "psychotic mood disorder-nos", as well as atypical schizoaffective; i believe the latter is most likely as i experience many symptoms of schizophrenia alongside my bd-nos symptoms. i was professionally diagnosed with a cluster-b pdnos by one doctor, and with histrionic personality disorder by another. i think histrionic and narcissistic personality disorders are the most fitting for my own dx, though i do have borderline and dependent traits.

outside of any solid diagnosis, i have experienced dissociation, flashbacks, and age regression (all because of trauma). i have a lot of obsessive-compulsive tendencies (skin-picking, intrusive thoughts, hoarding, etc.) but am not diagnosed with ocd in any regard; said symptoms are due to delusions, trauma, and autism. i also struggle with attention span, short- and long-term memory, and impulse control.